Choices

I looked at the calendar today as I walked into work (as I do everyday) and it dawned on me... I turn 30 years old in about 1 month. Where did the time go? Have I done all the things that I said I wanted to do before I turned 30? ... the answer is no!

I can't help but laugh as I type this, because in reality I know that 30 isn't old - I have my whole life ahead of me, but I can't help but wonder if I made some choices that I would live to regret.

Choice 1: Waiting to have kids - I hope that I don't wake up one day and realize that I can't have kids at all because I waited too long.

Choice 2: Is my career THAT important? - I love money as much than the next person, but Jamie and I work so much that we don't get to spend any time together at all.

Choice 3: I haven't traveled to any of the places that I wanted to see - Las Vegas, Hawaii, California, Paris, Italy, London, Japan (to see Nikki of course)

Choice 4: Not finishing college and having a bachelors degree - this one really bothers me... I have made progress though because in 2 weeks I will have an Associates Degree (I just wish my dad was here to see it!) But, I still feel like I need to have that Bachelors.

Meanwhile, my mother turns 60 in two weeks... if I feel old with turning 30, I can't imagine how she must feel!

He Came, He Saw, He Never Called Again...

Friday night was one of the single most bizarre nights in recent history. We arrived at Marion's Pizza and there stood Jamie's father and his step-mother (who was crocked out of her mind on wine - by the way) waiting for us like Jamie was excited to see him or something... Jamie walked over and shook his hand. I think his dad was thinking that Jamie was going to hug him... but no such luck. Then Jamie's aunt, uncle and cousins walked over and greeted us like we had seen each other a million times over the years... (first time meeting everyone there except Jamie's dad who I met 4 years ago for 2 hours). It was all just SO bizarre.

To make a really long and convoluted story as short as possible - I'll cut right to the point. Jamie hardly spoke to his father, his father expected the kids to be excited that he drove "all the way here to see them", and the whole situation was awkward. Well, here comes the kicker: Jamie's dad says "we will get together for dinner before we leave on Tuesday morning." HE NEVER CALLED JAMIE OR JULIE SINCE FRIDAY! Now, if you say you drove here to see your kids; how come you didn't spend any time with them?

Everyone started taking pictures so I busted out my camera for this shot...




Time will tell if his dad bothers to call him again!

Jamie's Phone Call...

Jamie's dad called him last night at 10:30 to tell him time and location for tonight. Well, that's a start. But in the tradition of being a pessimist... this is still the same man who would tell the kids to be ready at 7:00 and never show up.

I talked to Julie last night and she was totally frantic... what do I wear? good makeup or natural? hair up or down? jeans or dressy? I can't imagine what they both are feeling right now. I know that Jamie's mom is very nervous and wants me to call her at points during the night to give her the update. I really can and can't relate to this at all... while Jamie and Julie question whether they should have a relationship and talk to their dad again, I would give everything I own in the world to talk to mine again for 5 minutes. Jamie and I are opposite ends of the spectrum in this situation, but I think we have more in common than we both realize... we both wish we had our dads. Tonight will be very difficult for them if he is sick.

I'm taking my camera and hopefully I can take some pictures (if its not too uncomfortable). I know... I know... I haven't even posted my pics from Texas yet. I'm working on it! More later...